Saturday, October 10, 2009 --



Friday, October 2, 2009 --

Can you believe it's already October?

My birthday passed, last week, I believe. It was a really good time.... spent about 11 hours at the dojo, then Sheila picked me up and took me home. I like that girl so much... I wish it was exclusive. If it's meant to be, it will.

Oh! I read this beautiful phrase:

I love and approve of myself and I trust in the process of life.
I am safe.

That is so powerful to me! I love it! Trusting in the process of life means knowing that God works for the good of us. Flowers bloom, trees grow, clouds form, rain falls, and so on and so on, by just going with the flow of life. Not only trusting that something happen as a result, but that the most beneficial outcome is happening.  Trusting that you are (that I am) safe.

Think about the amount of worrying that we all partake in. God says specifically, "Be anxious for nothing,'' not to worry. But ask Him to be with me. Sounds so simple, yet why is it so difficult? I know why it's difficult: the Ego. F the ego! I want it gone! I want to trust in our Father God that he will take care of all my needs and fulfill me beyond my fathomable abilities.

I am safe.

"He who dwells in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty." - Psalms 91:1

Gorgeous.



Monday, September 14, 2009 --

Today's Monday, but technically it's my Friday! (work-wise) And let me just thank God for that!!!

Lastnight we had ribs, corns, rice, bread rolls, potatoes for dinner at my dad's. It was excellent. My dad, Theresa, Ray, Brendon, Ashley, Aaron, and myself.  I love when the whole family gets together and eats a meal at the kitchen table.

I should comment again, that i'm at work. And some customer's cause my blood to boil! There are some customers that ask 3.4 million questions about every little thing imaginable. I feel my patience completely disappearing, leaving my body. I shouldn't allow myself to react in this way. I'm smarter than that. I'm more capable of controlling myself. I know this! But still.....

Please God bless me with patience and understanding. Please. I appreciate my job and am thankful to you for giving it to me.

One of Loren's ABSOLUTE PET PEEVES:     WHINEY MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please help me God!
  But I don't wanna speak of the negative...  Let's talk about the great:




Sunday, September 13, 2009 --

Okay, I've been feeling impatient lately. At times, I literally feel my skin crawl. Other times I find myself looking forward to things (like smoking, eating, etc.) expecting to be fulfilled once I allow myself to have these things. What's crazy is that I KNOW that won't fulfill me! I know that as soon as I smoke a cigarette or eat a slice(s) of pizza, I'll already be searching my mind for the next thing. It never satisfies me! Horrible feeling, these fleeting pleasures are!

Then of course, I'm allowing the issue with Sheila to bother me. (I ask you God to please release me of all that. Please bless her and her family and friends with your love. Please fill me with your holy spirit and give me the strength and patience to be fruitful with my thoughts.) I've been really allowing it to bother me. My ego is ridiculously sneaky and manipulative. Because of this, my spirit as been definitely lacking hope.

So, I went on a bike ride lastnight. Let me first of all GIVE ALL THE GLORY TO GOD. I'm telling you, I ask for God's help, and he delivers! I ride my bike along Germann heading east towards Power Road, and stop on top of an overpass. Gorgeous! And I spoke to God. But best of all, I felt him with me there! I started thinking: I'm always trying to look forward to something, believing that I'll be happier once I receive it, then I am at this current moment. But that's not true! I've already found that out. And it hit me: be happy right now. Now is all that counts. Life is a whole bunch of NOWS. If I can't be happy with my now, why would I be happy/content with my later?

I love the Bible verse, where God says: "Never will I leave you. Never will I forsake you." (Hebrews 13:5) NEVER!?!? Who else in this entire Universe promises to never leave you!? Well of course, people may say so, but is there anyone that can keep that promise? Only God.

I want to thank God. You are ALWAYS there for me! I WANT YOU!

Right now is what counts. If I don't appreciate right now, what's the point! Ashley, my step sister, bought me a book called 'The Power of Now' by Eckhart Tolle. I think it's time for me to read that!

I look forward again to my bike ride. I found a path dotted with lights that seem to go on forever. It's completely beautiful. The clarity of the sky, especially in Gilbert, Arizona, and the lack of tall buildings, allows me to really visualize our Earth in space. You can nearly see an arm of the Milky Way stretching across the sky. Amazing.

Speaking of, a friend of mine, through karate, name Donovan, says to me: "You know.. if someone was to ask me who my favorite artist was... I would say God." That's lovely.

I'm currently at work by the way. Thankful to God beyond description! I thank you with all my heart! I should probably leave this for now. Before I do, though, I wanna leave with greatness.. and I'll do this by stating: